isn't life unfair?

so my days are choppy.

carved into 2 hour bits.

the amount of time my daughter's able to stay awake without getting cranky.

and then she sleeps.

and i try to do something for me.

but it always ends up being surf the web or clean something. never do the pilates on the dvd that will make your core-trunk stronger.

we were visited by a physical therapist this week and the files of paper on her body got fatter.

she had diarrhea after eating tofu this week and the garbage cans filled with her diapers got fuller.

she had diarrhea this week and the laundry baskets filled with my jeans that were inadvertently crapped on through a seemingly absorbent pamper got taller.

i didn't want to go to bed before midnight until thursday and my eyes got droopier.

and so my wits end got closer.

and my patience grew thinner.

but i started doing skype b/c xina warrior princessed me into it and buying a camera and i am excited for what my future of free video calling will hold.

i feel like i am a bladerunner.

mom?

rudy?

pp?

xo

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